You’ll probably notice that for the past week I’ve posted very little on Instagram, only occasionally on Twitter, nowhere on our main YouTube channel and have failed at daily vlogging for nearly 2 weeks. So, where have I been? Aside from a weekend away in the Cotswolds I’ve been staring at my laptop screen attempting to find inspiration.
I need a new project. And this is something that I’ve constantly felt the need for within the last year, that’s the reason I started this blog, that’s the reason we started a new vlogging channel and that’s the reason I feel a little useless at the moment if I’m honest. But rather than staring at my laptop for another week and then punishing myself for the lack of work I’ve done, I thought I’d explain why I feel so lost and a need to start afresh. Please don’t get me wrong, I love YouTube. I love the fact that it gave me an opportunity to create videos and create a career for myself, but I hate that I’ve fallen out of love with the system because my trust has been neglected through YouTube’s constant changes and problems that they’re causing for creators. Yes, I trusted the platform with my whole entire career, some may think that’s stupid and I am slowly starting to worry that’s the truth. The problem here is that I’ve found such a strong passion for creating that I don’t think I could ever completely shift my career towards any other job role without being unhappy, so instead, I need to find something different to create on alongside our YouTube channels.
At first, I thought that starting a different type of YouTube channel would be the solution, I have since found my love for daily vlogging, but that hasn’t solved the need for a new project – most obviously because it’s a ‘YouTube’ channel, and therefore more trust is just lying with YouTube. I then decided to start a new blog – which I am enjoying and will obviously continue to post on when I want to, but it just doesn’t quite feel like I’m able to create as freely via a blog (which is definitely down to me and not blogging general) , and so I use it as more of a diary rather than a creative outlet. So then I’m stuck, what can I do alongside my YouTube channels, my blog and my socials that allows me to create constant content, have a voice longer than a few lines in an Instagram caption and not rely on YouTube’s untrustworthy platform? I’m thinking a podcast. You’re probably thinking however that this is nothing new, and everyone’s doing this. And if you are, to an extent you’re correct. But there’s probably a reason why people are all moving in this direction, and it’s probably pretty close to mine.
So, my message to you within all of this is I’m sorry for the lack of content, thank you for baring with me, would you listen to a podcast if I made one? And in case you were worried, it won’t be replacing any of mine or Amelia’s other content that we put out, but instead hopefully inspire the other content I create too. Thanks for sticking with me.
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