Today the charity Scope tweeted out some statistics that even I was surprised about: “1 in 5 of us in the UK is disabled”. Two days ago I was on the tube and got stopped by eight individual people telling me how great I was at presenting the weather on television. I didn’t present the weather, I’m not a weather presenter but Lucy Martin is on television and has one hand -as do I, so of course, we must be the same person? God forbid there were multiple people in the world with a disability.
It’s a vicious circle. I know it’s important to care for yourself, I know it’s important to have some down time and I know it’s important to not always be thinking about work, about money and social statistics. So why do I feel so guilty when I’m not working?
I’ve thought about this a lot and I strongly believe it’s tied to being self-employed. You know that dream so many of us have? To work from home, to work our own hours, to decide our own holidays. You also get the beautiful feeling of constantly feel guilty when you aren’t working along with it. Go on holiday tomorrow, sure! Feel guilty because you’ve spent money on a holiday and also aren’t earning any money while on that trip -sure! (say goodbye to holiday pay). Oh and also because you are not finding any future work whilst away on this trip, you get to feel guilty about the future too – woop!
You’ll probably notice that for the past week I’ve posted very little on Instagram, only occasionally on Twitter, nowhere on our main YouTube channel and have failed at daily vlogging for nearly 2 weeks. So, where have I been? Aside from a weekend away in the Cotswolds I’ve been staring at my laptop screen attempting to find inspiration.
I need a new project. And this is something that I’ve constantly felt the need for within the last year, that’s the reason I started this blog, that’s the reason we started a new vlogging channel and that’s the reason I feel a little useless at the moment if I’m honest. But rather than staring at my laptop for another week and then punishing myself for the lack of work I’ve done, I thought I’d explain why I feel so lost and a need to start afresh. Continue reading “Where Have I Been?”
If I could tell you how many people have recently said to me “Oh my god you’re so adult” i’d be pretty rich, well not that rich, i’d probably have a £20 note, but still, that’s enough to go an buy a new And Other Stories top and hopefully you get my point.
A lot of people have been telling me how ‘adult’ I am now, is it because I have a boyfriend? Is it because we live together? Is it because we bought a house together? Or is it because we have a puppy to look after? God knows.